All righty. So I told myself now that school has started back up, I wouldn't be on dA so much because I'll be extremely busy.
However...the lovely C-Allagash contacted me with a publication opportunity, and I couldn't help but check it out. Then... RiverDreamer, who represents the company of RiverDreams Publishing (found here, you all should check out their site and see if their policy works well with you if you want to publish: www.riverdreamspublishing.com/…), contacted me as well, saying they had read some of my poetry and wanted to know if I was interested in submitting my work to their 2013 Poetry Anthology.
I had a goddamn heart attack, guys.
I am going to definitely consider this amazing opportunity, and I'm hoping that maybe, just maybe, this is the real deal and I'll get something of mine out in the real world for all to see. I have emailed the company with some questions, and once they are answered...I really think I will go through with this. I can't believe it. I'm crying right now.
...I want to share something else with you all. When I was younger, I found a book titled "Gamer Girl," by Mari Mancusi. A synapsis is: After Maddy's parents divorce, she's stuck starting over at a new high school. Friendless and nicknamed Freak Girl, Manga-loving artist Maddy finds refuge in the interactive online game Fields of Fantasy. In that virtual world, she reinvents herself as Allora, a gorgeous elfin alter ego, and meets a true friend in Sir Leo. Maddy can't hide behind Allora forever, especially as a real-life crush begins edging in on her budding virtual romance. But would anyone pick the real Maddy, gamer girl and Manga freak, over the fantasy? This fresh, geeky/cool novel includes online chats and exciting gaming, and features Maddy's Mangastyle artwork. Obviously, this type of story isn't for everybody, but it definitely appealed to me.
I was in my weeaboo stage when I read this book. And it really opened up my eyes about certain things.
You don't need an avatar, a fictional persona, etc. to be strong.
You just need to (and I hate to use the words of North from Rise of the Guardians, but it really does work for this) find your center.
That book got me thinking. It was such a simple plot to most eyes, but to mine...it really made me feel like I could accomplish anything. It was when I started to take writing more seriously. Because, honestly, I'm just a normal high school girl who gets average grades and has problems just like everyone else. I laugh, I cry, I feel depressed, I feel like I'd love nothing more than to be invisible...
But damn it all, I'm going to find my center in this world, and through the hardships I go through...I'll become strong. Sure, I may not be as amazing as any alter ego I could ever create, but hey! This is reality. We're not perfect; we're not magical knights or whatever. We're human, and we make mistakes.
This publishing opportunity has really made me think. I know I always say my writing is crappy and I don't deserve the attention I've gotten over the past year or so, but...I'm so freaking glad I have. Thank you, everyone. Thank you.
I'll hopefully cease the journal spamming for the week, and I hope you all get something from my attempt at being wise.