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I don't really know how to start this journal off. I don't really know what exactly to say, even. But this has to be said before I let myself shrug it off like everything else.

If you're a longtime watcher, then you know I've been struggling with depression for about a year and a half. Honestly, it's been longer, but that's when I really came to accept it for what it was. Lately, I've been telling myself to just not let anything get to me--to find my smile and laugh back, and not the slightly fake ones I've been wielding for the past few months. To tell the complete truth, that hasn't really been working.

Writing is my way to vent. My way to channel my emotions and feelings into something that I can show them in another manner other than ugly thoughts. But, writing is also my way to create new worlds and tell countless stories of people and lands that I've devised in my messed up head. A couple weeks ago, my LA Honors teacher basically told me I can't write essays or the like that will get me anywhere in college, and it upset me more than I care to admit--it really did. Since then, I've been really going over my love for reading and writing and how I want to make a career out of it, so that perhaps someday I can prove to those wrong who told me that my writing was never going to get me anywhere in life.

I don't want my writing to be only for me, though. I feel like that's how I've been coming off lately. And I assure you, I want nothing like that. I admit, yes, I write solely for myself at times. But...I honestly, truly, irrevocably want to somehow make it so the stories and poems or whatever else I decide to write can reach out to other people and help them.

I always, always, always try my best at writing. I'm constantly trying to improve. I don't just slap a few paragraphs or words down and say, "Boom! There's a story/poem!" I go over it, no matter what it is, three to four times and try to make it the best it can be. Coming from someone who doesn't have much self confidence, however, I admit I normally think that the ending product is complete shit. It's just the way I am and I can't really get out of that mindset.

I want my writing to help people. I want to be able to reach out to others and forget about my own issues and problems; instad, I want to focus on assisting those in need of it as best as I can. Whether this be just talking with them, or writing them something, whatever it is...I want to do it. I'm sick and tired of dwelling in my own self pity when there are so many others out there with issues far bigger than mine who need all the support they can get.

I'm going to try and be more active with my watchers; meaning, I want to talk to you guys more. Exchange notes or just have a nice conversation. I want to be a person whom you feel you can go to whenever you need to get something off your chest, like I am right now. I know that seems a bit presumptuous of me, but I just honestly want to be the person that I don't always have around in my life. I know how badly that person is needed, especially when you're at your worst.

There are so many wonderful people I've met via the internet that I don't keep in touch with as close as I once did anymore. That's because I keep getting scared. Worried. Afraid that if I constantly talk about the bad things in my life and focus on the good things (because there are good things, even if they feel like they're few and far between right now) that they'll eventually become fed up with me and give up on me. I'm always apologizing to them, telling them that I'm not worth their time, but they always...always...always say the same thing:

"You're worth it."

Dammit. If someone like me, who stopped being the happy little idiot that never failed to come up with a story or RP idea and instead became a pessimistic and slightly bitchy girl who could put on an energetic mask for the public of day, but come night she would cry herself to sleep can be "worth it," then so can those who are in my shoes. Those people who are plagued with this soul-sucking disease that depression morphs into and makes you into someone you're not, nor do you want to be.

So please.

Just...let me be there for you guys, like you have always been there for me. For always standing by my side whenever I'm stuck with writer's block or feel like disappearing would be the best thing to do. I can't stress how much I love and appreciate every one of you who spares the time to give me a kind word of encouragement so I can keep going.

It's time I start doing the same, even though I admit that I'm not entirely sure just how I'll go about it.

I swear I will figure it out, though.
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ktkeiper Featured By Owner Apr 30, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
I haven't been watching you for too long, and we've never talked. I know exactly how you feel though, and if you ever need someone to talk about, feel free to send me a note, and I'll be there for you :) :heart: :hug: Oh, and I really do love your writing :)
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PrussianPersephone Featured By Owner May 1, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
You don't know how much that honestly means to me. :heart: Thank you.
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ktkeiper Featured By Owner May 5, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
You are very welcome :)
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yellowfire7 Featured By Owner Apr 29, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
"I honestly, truly, irrevocably want to somehow make it so the stories and poems or whatever else I decide to write can reach out to other people and help them."

I don't think you need to worry about that. It has already been happening a lot.

I see other people have already written you novels so I'm just going to leave it at this: thank you. If you honestly want to help people, sometimes that's all it takes.
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PrussianPersephone Featured By Owner Apr 29, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
Aha, thanks...I just really want to change and help people.
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evetyran Featured By Owner Apr 29, 2013  Student General Artist
Even though you feel like you burden us a lot with your problems and make us fed up, you're wrong. Everyone has this phase a few times - Life really is the number one b*tch. But don't forget that it isn't the end of the world when something happens, 'kay? After all, there's still tomorrow, and even though something bad may have happened to you, a lot of good things happened to, right? And even though you said that you try to focus on good things and it doesn't help, it's okay. Sometimes depression is that strong - but we'll be there to help you. Besides, I'm pretty sure we've all had similar phases - but that's all it is. A phase. Even though it may feel like it'll last forever, it'll past. For me, I've never been good at getting out of depression, because if I cry, I feel weak, and when I talk to someone, I feel weak (Again, ha ha). Usually, I distract myself with homework or the fictional world, which I know is something you don't want, but just.. keep reading. For me, it sort of gives me the depression little by little, because I'm so distracted which makes me cope better. I'm just saying that we all have different ways of coping with it, and if yours is writing, we'll help you get better.

When I first moved, I remember going in this sort-of HUGE depression thing (I was in year 5 at the time, but i still remember it clearly), where I didn't want to talk to people and i just wanted to yell at everyone and make them do whatever I wanted, and I looked at everything negatively. I hated the teachers because I felt that they were against me, an I actually fantasised about killing them every so often, when they were talking. At that time, that was my way of coping with depression: Turning it to hate and anger. Not the best way. I had to be taken to the school counsellor because I would break down in the most random of times - in class, after school, when I saw my old-school's planner etc, etc. But then, I discovered this wonderful thing called Deviant Art, which helped me. I became more musically attuned, listened to music that made me feel better, and browse and improve my art. Then I came to manga, and it definitely made me feel better. So, when I came back to school, I rebuilt my reputation, and it was pretty quick, because apparently, I'm quite charismatic. Also, I wasn't afraid to stand up to the people who were "Popular"- In my school, that meant athletic and available to date (Geez, we were only 11 >.<). I began loving the school, and gaining many close friends, then I moved. Again. But it wasn't as bad as my transition to Beijing.

Ha ha, I think I got carried away... >.<
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PrussianPersephone Featured By Owner Apr 29, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
Well. Damn. I never had that, since I've never moved.

But thank you for sharing that with me. I know what you mean by trying to find something to channel your depression.
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Hetalia-Spain Featured By Owner Apr 29, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
((I always enjoy the things you write. You put so much work into each piece, and it turns out fabulously. I'm pretty jealous actually! And don't let that depression bring you down. You gotta stay awesome, find things that can make you smile.

Expressing your feelings through your writing is a great way to vent. I usually do so whenever I'm feeling down, or angry. Sometimes I do it to calm myself down, since I can get a bit too hyperactive. But it always helps to talk to a friend, instead of bottling up any feelings. It feels good to tell somebody what's on your mind.

We all love you very much dear. Hopefully I can speak for all of us when I say we appreciate you and your writing. If that made any sense. Sounded better in my head... But nonetheless, we adore you. And we'll always be here in your time of need. ouo))
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PrussianPersephone Featured By Owner Apr 29, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
Aw, thank you so much. Truly.
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Hetalia-Spain Featured By Owner Apr 29, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
((You're very welcome! ^^))
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M-Gray-M Featured By Owner Apr 27, 2013  Hobbyist Digital Artist
I'm a fairly new watcher, as you probably know.
And I wish I wasn't because honestly, you are already such an inspiration to me, as an aspiring writer.
I want so badly to be able to somehow make a career out of the only thing, only thing, that I think I'm not just decent at, but rather something that I have a knack for, that could one day be cultivated into something that I can look at and be proud of. Really proud of.
And I want you to know how much I love your work. I want you to know how much I look up to you. I want you to know that no matter how upset your poetry is- it is beautiful. It really is, and I cannot put into words how absolutely in love with it I am. Maybe some day I will be able to do so, though.

If what you're suggesting is really going to go down, don't let it be a one sided deal. You are more then welcome to come to me to talk, even if its only because you need to the opinion of someone who isn't so familiar with your situation, as after all, we are still strangers of a sort. And really, I'll do my best to come to you too.

Bottom line is, I really want you to be happy. You deserve to be happy. Really you do.
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PrussianPersephone Featured By Owner Apr 28, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
Thank you.

We both need to keep working hard on our writing.

We're worth it.
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0-EmoLeopard-0 Featured By Owner Apr 27, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
I'm not too sure what to say to this, honestly.

You and I have never really talked much, but I would really like you to know that no matter what you do, you and your work is an inspiration to me.
What you write always, without fail, strikes a chord in me, and I know that what you can do is something that I'd like to be able to do one day.

I believe that you are strong, too. You've gone through all of these struggles in your life, but from what I've seen, you've almost always pulled through.
And damn it, you are worth it.
You're one of the best writers that I know of, and just because you're fighting depression doesn't mean that you're weak. You use your writing to pull through, and you manage to pull out some absolutely incredible ideas on top of that.

You deserve your Daily Deviation, and about fifteen more on top of it. Just because your style doesn't suit one form of writing doesn't mean that you aren't an amazing artist and an incredible human being. So please keep fighting, and keep trying, and remember that we love you, here on DA.

And please remembeer, that if you ever need someone to talk to, you can talk to me, if you want.I know that we don't really know eachother well, but I'll do my best to listen without judgement to whatever you say.
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PrussianPersephone Featured By Owner Apr 28, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
Thank you. Truly, thank you. I want to get to know you better as well.

I would write a longer comment but I just woke up so fuck the police.
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0-EmoLeopard-0 Featured By Owner Apr 30, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
It's absolutely no problem. you really seem like such an awesome, witty and interesting person ;u;

It's fine; don't worry! XD I'm so using that phrase
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tngapch Featured By Owner Apr 27, 2013  Professional Writer
I wrote out a very long comment, reread it and deleted it. Perhaps I will make a journal post someday.

Don't let anyone tell you what you are capable of. There are many styles of writing - it may just be you need to work on those types to get you where you want to go. Second, while a college degree is important and you should by all means pursue your education and learn all you can about writing - don't let anyone tell you that a piece of paper is necessary in order to validate you as an author.

As for writing in general and your teachers' comments: don't sweat it. When I was in HS, English was my worst subject. I nearly didn't pass. What do I do now? I write. My family, my former teachers... we all laugh at the irony of it. But it was something I wanted, something I pursued and sought to improve myself. You have to believe in your abilities, even if you think your writing is crap. Heck, I think most of what I write is crap, but we are always our own worst judges. Editing is your best friend.

And write for yourself. Writing is like love - you have to love yourself before you are capable of loving others. Same with writing - you have to write for yourself and love what you write first. You have to love it and be so enthusiastic about that love, to the point where it is contagious. Writing is work. It is reading and researching and blood, sweat and tears. It is curses and warm kittens and warm cocoa and missed meals. It is tired eyes and sore fingers and tense muscles. And above all it is the feeling of satisfaction when you finish. It is pride in your accomplishments and love of the worlds and characters you have brought to life. If you can't feel that pride, if you don't have that love, no one else will.

I started watching you because your words caught me. Not your fanfic works, but your genuine works. They are rough, but they shine with promise. They are the proverbial diamond in the rough. You just need to polish them a bit, learn how to cut them so they shine with brilliance. And yes, you are going to make mistakes as you go, but keep going. If this is the life you want, you already have the gift you require. It just needs work and time, but you will get there.

Wow. That wasn't as short as I had thought it would be. That journal is still in the works though. :)
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PrussianPersephone Featured By Owner Apr 27, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
Long comments are the best...though since I'm trying to do homework my reply won't be too long ^^;

Thank you so much though. And you're right--writing is like love. And I really want to love myself already instead of hating.
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InsanitysEnding Featured By Owner Apr 27, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
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PrussianPersephone Featured By Owner Apr 27, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
:hug:
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Fall-Like-Angels Featured By Owner Apr 27, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
*hug* Darn if I was right next to you right now I'd hug you so tight you'd die. Cause I get it, really I do. I'm here if ya ever want an open ear, kay?

I'll never get fed up with you. I can honestly say I won't. Because I know that fear. "What if I'm not worth it? Will they give up on me?" I've found people who tell me I AM worth it. Plus everyone who does the same on here. *hug again*

I hope things get better.
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PrussianPersephone Featured By Owner Apr 27, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
I like hugs.

Thank you.

Yeah, fuck everyone. We're worth it.
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Fall-Like-Angels Featured By Owner Apr 27, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
^^ True dat.
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writeritalian14 Featured By Owner Apr 27, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
I'd help you out! I always have weird ideas in my head unless i have writers block but idk. anyway roleplaying helps give story ideas and eveything. Thats how i'm making my characters. Anyway..I think that you're idea is great and i will support you along the way and it seems we see things the same way. I've actually always admired you and your writing,that teacher obviously knows nothing of how powerful words are. I admire and look up to you and very few other people so i would love to help you out as i know what its like to have depression and major anxiety. I don't really know what else to say besides this is the awkward ending where i'd normally add weird faces and be all hai! or something like that.
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PrussianPersephone Featured By Owner Apr 27, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
That's what I used to use RP-ing for. But now...I just can't. I feel so awkward. I want to get back into it, because it was such a good way to exert my creativity, but after giving it up for a year...

But thank you. Everyone's words mean so much. And I want to help them as much as they help me.
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writeritalian14 Featured By Owner Apr 27, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
Maybe i could help you get back into it?
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PrussianPersephone Featured By Owner Apr 27, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
Well, I used to do it via email with really close friends...
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writeritalian14 Featured By Owner Apr 27, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
Oh. erm... want a cupcake? *hands cupcake to save from awkward moment*
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worldpeaceismine Featured By Owner Apr 27, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
Damn, I'll never get fed up with you. You're a friend!

Do you know, one of my dreams is to get published by a good publisher and let my books or stories spread around the world. Not to get famous, or for the money, but to have the power to help by being able to spread my or any other person's message. I don't know if I misread something but I think you have a similar idea, right? To help people. My strongest belief is that anyone who helps, or wants to, will reach their goal. Always. It may not be in the way they visualised it, but it will be what they want, whether they think it is, or not.

C'mon. If you were 'slightly bitchy', you wouldn't admit it to all these people. And if you're pessimistic, go ahead. The universe, (if you believe in this theory), is an ongoing cycle. You're going to be happy after you're sad. It's like a rainbow after a storm, and however cliche this phrase is I will use it till the day i die. I hope you find a way to be happier. Happiness is contagious so stick around those people who make you smile, laugh.

Plus, don't take your teacher's comment to heart, okay? People have different opinions, its just a matter of whether you trust your own. If it makes a difference, I, and i'm sure all your watchers, love your writing. I mean, that's why we're still here, ain't it?

So c'mon, I do hope you're smiling right now! I support you, all the way! We haven't met but personalities can be seen through art and I know that you're one heck of an awesome person! Smile! :)
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PrussianPersephone Featured By Owner Apr 27, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
Thank you so much. And you're right...after reading the comments, I am smiling. but I just woke up and it's only 8 in the morning I wanna go back to bed
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worldpeaceismine Featured By Owner Apr 27, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
Haha yup! ...you know, I don't trust people who smile before 9 am... :D
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forxa Featured By Owner Apr 27, 2013
I'll do my best to help you out too.
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PrussianPersephone Featured By Owner Apr 27, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
Thank you. :hug: Ily man.
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forxa Featured By Owner Apr 27, 2013
:huggle:
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FlyingPastaKitty Featured By Owner Apr 27, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
Use your writing as a way of venting. Don't let the essay thing get to you. You just need practice! Just remember if you need someone to talk to I'm here. I know how you feel. I have depression cause my mom makes me feel like a failure and a burden on the world. Plus, thanks to this one school, my grades slipped and I failed that year. I about had a nervous breakdown and lost most of the sanity I've had left. I'm always here if ya need to talk. Note me if ya need too. :)
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PrussianPersephone Featured By Owner Apr 27, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
My parents have moments where they do that, but then they also support me...it's a circle of insanity.

Thank you. I hope you find a way to break the binds of depression as well.
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FlyingPastaKitty Featured By Owner Apr 27, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
Plus, my mother acts as if I don't care about my education. I do care about my education. I wanna work in the medical field. As for your teacher she sounds like a bitch. It could be very well her fault. I mean, thanks to Indian Creek I failed my 1st year of high school. I wanted to choke my math teacher. She never explained anything, when she did, she did it too fast and I couldn't understand her. ((Sorry If I'm Comma happy, I just woke up.)) Then she gave us a shitload of homework, then bitched asking why we didn't do it or got them all wrong. Pretty much everyone failed, 1 out of 30 people passed that class. I actually missed the day after the exams just so I wouldn't go off on her when she bitched. The other teachers did the same shit! I swear the school councilor is a moron!


Since then I dropped out for the rest of the year since online schooling won't except me. Indian Creek made me so fucking depressed, I considered killing myself. They also dogged my old school. The one I spent the most time at and started high school at. My grades were fine there. The lowest I ever got was a C. Indian Creek, no they slipped. My mom understands why I failed Indian Creek. I'm so fucking embarrassed, I was held back in first grade. Luckily I'll be going back to my old school in the fall! The people at Indian Creek were pure Idiots! They dogged my old school when they had never been there! They just bragged at how there football team beat my old school.

I told them that's because my old school focus's more on education them sports. We're not bronze over brains assholes! I hope their fail rate gets so low that it shuts down the school. But I really don't care! A ton of people are starting to go to my old school from Indian Creek. Why you ask? Simple, they told everyone that Indian Creek was going to have a 3 week summer. I shit you not. Luckily I get back to my old school. :) Sorry this so long. My old school has an 8 week or long summer. No one ever fails there! They're more dedicated to EVERYONE'S Education then anything!
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CrazyCharlette1415 Featured By Owner Apr 27, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
Oh wow. Gosh, there's so many feels. Everyone's pretty much poured out what they feel, and quite frankly I'm not really the type to do that.

What I can do, however, is tell you this: you are only what you want to be. Damnit that's such a cliché phrase

Vent all you want. If it helps, go for it! We all have our own unique ways. Your LA teacher is guiding you where she/he feels like you're lacking, and that's always a pretty harsh thing to hear, especially if they word it wrong. But keep on going! If essays aren't your forte, then that's fine! You'll make a fine author, that's for sure. You have your own brand of uniqueness that makes you so popular and loved. :heart:

I'll just be lurking here and there, so don't mind me. :meow:
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PrussianPersephone Featured By Owner Apr 27, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
That's fine, aha...I can't do this thing aloud, only in writing.

Cliches are sometimes the best.

I know. I need to focus on technical writing as well, and get better at it...but it would be easier if my teacher wasn't so blunt. She's always been that way for everyone, so I've heard.

THank you.
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CrazyCharlette1415 Featured By Owner Apr 27, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
^^ You're welcome.
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TheAwesomeHero7714 Featured By Owner Apr 26, 2013  Hobbyist
I'm sorry that your teacher told you that. It is NOT something that should be told to anyone. Who is anyone to tell whether someone is or isn't capable of doing great things? Your writings are amazing. I really believe that they are.
I haven't been a long time watcher. Heck, I haven't even been on deviantArt for that long. But ever since I did start watching you, and reading your work/journals. You come off as a very strong person. It's okay to vent. It really is much easier to talk to a stranger about problems. I would just like to say that you are just amazing. Even after all that you've gone through, you manage to not completely just give up, and even decide to help others. It's very understandable if you get fed up with your emotions because they aren't easily disposable. You can't just not feel. I hope that you feel a lot better. It's not good to hide things and keep them bottled. I'm just happy that you are able to say these things out loud. That you can express yourself and keep the bottle from storing too much.
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PrussianPersephone Featured By Owner Apr 27, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
She's not very helpful and tends to be rudely blunt with everyone.

Thank you so much though. Every word means so much.
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TheAwesomeHero7714 Featured By Owner Apr 27, 2013  Hobbyist
You're welcome. I'm glad that they do. ^_^
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LizKartland Featured By Owner Apr 26, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
If I were you, and someone told me that couldn't write, I'd send them home in a coffin. You are the most talented author ever. Better than everyone. Because, you are one of those people that can put emotion into your poetry. Like, REAL emotion. Everything you have written is fantastic. You're fantastic! Hell, even your comments are works of art. And don't let anyone tell you different. If the world can't accept you, don't accept the world.

I'm not as amazing as you are, but if you need a shoulder to cry on, I'm here.
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PrussianPersephone Featured By Owner Apr 27, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
I'm not "the most talented" because there are so many people out there who are better than I am...but thank you. That means so much. And my comments a work of art?

:iconcannotevenplz: :iconprussiarapefaceplz: :iconovariesplz: ermahgerd

Have I changed your mind? :XD:
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LizKartland Featured By Owner Apr 27, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
Your comments are art. That's how talented you are. And no, you haven't changed my mind, I still think you're awesome!
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Ag-Wolf Featured By Owner Apr 26, 2013
Now I know yer gonna balk at this, but I think the world could use more peeps as noble as you. So there! :3
And I'm sure you already know this, but take it from someone who's been there. You are going to get through this depression crap, and you're going to come out on the other side better and stronger. And the fact that you're refusing to give up speaks volumes of your strength.
:iconkakashithumbsupplz: Oh, and one last thing; pretty much EVERY successful writer has someone who tells them their writing won't amount to anything, so if anything it's a good sign you're on the right track! X3
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PrussianPersephone Featured By Owner Apr 27, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
Thank you so much. but I'm not noble

I know...I know...but it still hurts. I want to keep on going, though.
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Ag-Wolf Featured By Owner Apr 27, 2013
Despite your own pain you're still going out of your way to help others, to me that makes you noble. :)
And I'm going to keep rooting for you of course! :dance:
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Acting-luver Featured By Owner Apr 26, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
I really want to kick that LA teacher in the balls or equal equivalent right now....

Unfortunately, that would be a counterproductive measure that would come to nothing in the end. Idiocy is far too durable. *sigh* I weep for that poor soul.

But seriously, ignore the crap your teacher told you. You want to write, go ahead and write to your heart's content.

Honestly, I love everything you've written so far. Thinking back, I realize I haven't actually been watching you that long; but I can't really remember what my devi experience was like WITHOUT your literary works.

Every single story and poem in your gallery has become something I would use to DEFINE my experience on deviantart. In many ways, it's those same works that have helped me on many occasions.

I've often found myself reading some of your fanfictions when I'm feeling down, and my day gets immediately better. And, if I may be honest without hesitation here, your poems have helped me to accept myself a little more; if only because they signify that another person is dealing with similar thoughts to mine, but found a way to let all the negative feelings out.

I really respect you because of that. The strength to both find a way to creatively express those dark feelings as well as post them.....well, it's something I wish I could do.

Please know that I'm always willing to support you. I admire your strength and absolutely adore everything you write; so if you ever need an outlet, I'm willing to listen.

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PrussianPersephone Featured By Owner Apr 27, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
my teacher is a woman so it would be vagina lol

Ack....thank you so much. My poetry is how I vent, but I always want someone with the same emotions to realize they're not alone.

I'm glad I can help.
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