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   It begins with a wish

and ends with a sigh.

I am in love with boys who
don't exist and girls who I sometimes
pretend are myself. Spineless,
spiteful, and one hundred percent
sporadic,

   I'm becoming undone.

When I was
younger I thought it
was a sin if
your parents didn't
love each other. Now I
know that it's
just the way this world works.

    And hell,

I need you right now;

    to tell me that
    gaining four pounds in
    three days is typical

    to tell me that
    living in a dream every
    second is perfectly okay

    to tell me that
    I'm normal, that I'm
    still sane, that I'm not
    going to close my
    eyes one day and never
    open them again.

Don't look at me.

   Please, just
 don't look
at me.
  I can't remember
    the last time I
       had no regrets.
I don't know who (what) I am anymore and I'm sorry.
I wish you were here and not just in my head.
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Geraniumpickle Featured By Owner Aug 1, 2014
Pfft. Reality is for losers, who doesn't want to live in a dream? XD
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BlueFireballs Featured By Owner Jul 31, 2014   Writer
This is so beautiful. 
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cavalary1684 Featured By Owner Apr 18, 2014
Not looking at it as poetry, just as something personal being said, and...
With the world being like it is, even nightmares are at times a better option, not to mention dreams. It'd still be a good idea to at least sometimes try to poke out of them for however long you can to try to turn them into more than dreams though, even if it's difficult and generally unrewarding. The only battle certainly lost is the one not fought, after all.
As for sanity and being normal, why would you want to be? Sane, normal people made and maintain this world as it is. Would you want to be one of them? Even when you know what their very existence does to those who are not?
And having regrets means that you care, usually about something and/or someone other than yourself.
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LilyHellsing Featured By Owner Apr 18, 2014
Love the structure...
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luca0483 Featured By Owner Apr 17, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
Honesty is nice when you can get it
but i suck at being honest so i'll give you what my heart says.

To me, it isn't typical to gain four pounds in three days,
because i allmost never gain anyway
and to me, 
living in a dream every second is selfish,
because it's only worth something to others if you come out of it and share.

You're different.

But even though i don't 
gain four pounds in three days
and even though i don't live in a dream every second.

i do grow
and i do think,
i do dream, hope and believe.

So i cannot say if you're sane,
that is only known by you,
but i can express just how gratefull i am
for you being the person who do what you do.

You're appreciated.

But it doesn't come without a price.
Through your actions and words, you have shown yourself to the world.

I see you and i judge you,
but keep the judgement to myself.
I put it into every step i take from here,
every piece on the shelf,
everything i do
and say.

you're an inspiration.

The suffering shouldn't beautiful,
but that isn't what i'm trying to subject,
even though many people think differently.

I have just heard the phrase:
"i am the world"
one too many times,
and so i believe pain should be equally shared.

So i come here with my comment,
or maybe more like a reply,
and i try to apologise
so that maybe we can be more equal.

Because i am literally certified crazy and i believe in a better world.

You're sane relatively to me (most probably).

I'm truly sorry for posting on a dead piece of poetry.
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WolfxButterfly Featured By Owner Jan 23, 2014  Student Writer
:heart: :heart: :heart: 
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TheEmptyChest Featured By Owner Dec 28, 2013

I am in love with boys who
don't exist and girls who I sometimes
pretend are myself. Spineless,
spiteful, and one hundred percent
sporadic,

 

This is me.

 

The emotion in this piece is beyond any words I can muster.

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Entitaria Featured By Owner Dec 15, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
I hardly ever comment (seriously need to change that habit) but this really struck home. Not to mention the fact that I love almost every single thing you've written, and honestly, I'm just happy that there are lovely people around who can write such beautiful things, such as yourself. :>
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introverted-ghost Featured By Owner Dec 14, 2013   Writer
Lovely emotion.
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Espada-Kitsuki Featured By Owner Nov 11, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
I forgot how to speak for a moment there.
... I love this. 
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