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just because there are people all around me

doesn't mean I don't know what loneliness feels like

doesn't mean I go through every day faking a smile

when all I want to do is lock myself away and cry

because it feels like no one will want to understand or listen to

my fears

just because I have all the necessities of life


doesn't mean there isn't

a moment

a second

a heartbeat

where all I want to do

is die

Sorry for being all angsty, but I just need to get this out here.

My feelings in a nut shell.

Yes, I know have the things in life people generally take for granted.

I know I have "friends" and "family."

What I want is for them to see that I'm not all right, no matter how "good" I may seem to have it. For them to understand that I can't help but think and feel these things, and it's starting to scare me. Because I feel like everyone around me isn't really there. I just feel so lonely all the time, and I don't know how to put my thoughts into words.

I just need to get this out.
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LupiniunStar Featured By Owner Jul 19, 2013

And people can feel depressed no matter how much they have. I don't care if they're rich and are served hand and foot--they can be depressed.

And through your poetry, you put your thoughts into words amazingly. I can feel it when I read it, and it is completely understandable.

Short, but great. Of course.
worldpeaceismine Featured By Owner Nov 16, 2012  Hobbyist General Artist

I know that feel... Writing more angsty stuff is god for the soul. Do it more, k? It'll help you release tension.

I only just came back online, so I didn't have the chance to read all your new stories. I still hope you'll continue writing in general. You, are awesome at this.
Allthecoolnamesrgone Featured By Owner Nov 15, 2012  Hobbyist Writer
Sorry, I meant to comment on this, but my computer broke, and I can't comment using my phone. Sorry.

I understand absolutely how you feel. A lot of people tell me how "good" I have it and this is almost like my feelings in nutshell. I completely agree with you on this. It may not be a good thing. Personally, I think writing is an outlet. It helps you vent. When your stuck like this, at the absolute bottom, the only place left to go is UP!

Please be an freakin' airplane and fly up.
123ServantOfTheDoll Featured By Owner Nov 14, 2012
That's how I feel, not the crying bit though because I can't seem to cry these days.
spookbaby Featured By Owner Nov 12, 2012
Oh mai, how this describes me :I
Except.. Well, I have "I want to die."-moments all the time! I actually tried commiting suicide once, by jumping out of a third-story window, straight down and land on rocks, head first, but got stuck in the window, which just made me hate myself more. Heck, I can't even commit suicide properly!
PrussianPersephone Featured By Owner Nov 14, 2012  Hobbyist Writer
I don't really think that is something you should share publicly, but I have had my own share of suicide thoughts. And my own attempt.
spookbaby Featured By Owner Nov 14, 2012
I don't really think it matters, as the past is past, and not present. I promised my grandma before she died, that I'd stand up for everything I did, even if I actually regretted it. So.. SO what if I tried, it failed anyways c:
CrazyCharlette1415 Featured By Owner Nov 12, 2012  Hobbyist General Artist
Angsty is good. It lets us vent things that we have to vent and release the things we wish we didn't have.
Believe me, this is for everyone. Even the most comfortable person in the world may have wanted to throw away all their luxuries and say hello to death.
PrussianPersephone Featured By Owner Nov 14, 2012  Hobbyist Writer
Angsty is good. I've been in a very angsty mood.
imagination-junkie Featured By Owner Nov 12, 2012

I can totally relate to this one.
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