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My mind
just can't
seem to

s h u t   u p.

Too many "fuck you's"
that morph into
"I'm sorry's"
drip off this
dagger-tongue
like acid.

Monster.
Grotesque.
Liar.
Erratic.

Try and make it better. Fail. Try again. Break down.

So many faults
that seem to just
turn me into someone
I'm not.

Look into the mirror. See nothing but a clone. Fabrication. No longer me.

I stare and want
to break that glass
so that I can also
b r e a k.

Try and say something. Turns into nothing but rage. Take it out on you.

This shattered heart
only wants to make it
better
and become one again.

"I want to hate you."
"But I can't."
"So I hate me instead."
"But why won't this stop?"
"Why can't you make it stop?"


Stop.

Breathe.

Think.

"...it's not my fault."

Say what you want to say. Honest brutality.

"H E L P   M E"

No.

It's time for me to

s h u t   u p.

—whisper—



...I'm sorry.
...I'm sorry.
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Sparks-Fly-Upward Featured By Owner May 12, 2013  Student Writer
As I read this I envisioned you standing in front of a mirror, writing these staccato lines as they came to you, raw and unrestrained. Every time you'd blink, you saw a Cyberman in the mirror, staring at you, telling you to conform. But your fighting it off as it struggles to consume you, your shadows and demons. Back and forth you fight them to a stalemate, but still they threaten to conquer you. To me, it seems like you know that this fight will not end, but you still fight on because you must, lest you have your humanity sucked dry.

I really liked this one, because I really felt what you were feeling as you wrote. Excellent job, as always!
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Hetalia-Spain Featured By Owner Feb 27, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
((Don't apologize dear. It's not your fault. You did nothing wrong. Venting is good, it allows you to calm down and think on a clear mind. Never blame yourself for anything, since I've learned that got me nowhere. Neither does self pity unfortunately. If those things helped me at any time, I'd do that more often.... But alas, the only way to keep moving in this somewhat cruel reality is to stand back up and pick up the pieces of your life. Make your existance known throughout the world with your writing. Do that, and one day you shall be successful. Until then, never give up. Never apologize. Actually, scratch that. You should know when to and when not to apologize. Any who, where was I... Oh right. You're an amazing, talent, fabulous, awesome, beautiful, and beyond excellent writer. Keep going, keep being an inspiration to us all. And now I shall stop spouting words, for I'm sure this is a pretty long comment. xP))
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SherlockedHazza Featured By Owner Feb 23, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
Wow, just wow.. o:
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0-EmoLeopard-0 Featured By Owner Feb 23, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
it's incredible. There's so much emotion hidden in the words.
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The-Panda-Bread Featured By Owner Feb 23, 2013  Hobbyist Digital Artist
beautiful.
It reminds me of a person I once knew.
Someone I would rather have not met.
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susei1348 Featured By Owner Feb 22, 2013  Student Filmographer
I love it.
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ghearradh Featured By Owner Feb 22, 2013
This is so amazing. The format is so eye-catching. Very, very well done, dear. :)
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findmyface Featured By Owner Feb 22, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
Your poetry is so real, I would love to see you make a living out of it!
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forxa Featured By Owner Feb 22, 2013
[link] maybe this'll help you calm down a bit. I dunno if it would help or not but one part of your poem made me want to show you this.
I'm sorry if this isn't helpful. I'll stop bugging you soon...
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