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Three years ago I had the ability to write 5000+ words in four hours or less.

Two years ago I finished a 20+ chaptered fanfic in less than a year.

Now I can barely write a 500 word poem without it taking all day.

I just...feel so stuck and empty right now. I keep saying the same thing over and over again. I love writing and I want to keep doing it. I just can't. And I've been taking a break for the most part this summer in hopes of gaining my muse back but...to no avail.

And when college starts I know that I'll become so freaked out that I won't even be able to think about writing anything but essays.

How? How do people do it? How do people constantly write every day without getting burned out or tired of it?

I have all these plots and ideas and stories and characters in my head and the furthest they ever get is a short description in a google doc that will never be opened again most likely. I want them to be free and have some chance at living. But I just can't. fucking. write. anything.

I've tried following prompts upon prompts for both fanfics and prose and even poetry. It hasn't worked in the bit. And right now I really want to write a fanfic for the Transformers series because I got obsessed with it - I mean, the amount of hype I have for it right now is so intense and I should be able to get at least one chapter done with how pumped up and ready to write I am! But nope. nothing. My word documents remain blank and I can't write in notebooks because my handwriting is so horrible it would just mess things up.

I miss 15-year-old me. Sure, she was fucking stupid whose ideas were cliche and whose sense of grammar was way off. But at least she could write. At least she was 90% happy with what she wrote and most of her life. Now I'm just a bitter old teenager whose only talent lies in complaining about her life to people on the internet who really don't care.

Sorry. I'm just really angry with myself right now.

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Bridget
Artist | Hobbyist | Literature
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wow. such writer. many literature. very words.

I write. I read. I daydream. I eat bacon. I play Pokemon.

I'm not very interesting and neither is this bio.


poetry | fanfiction | original writing | all-around advocate of the "anything goes" genre

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pinxroxx Featured By Owner Jul 15, 2014  New member Hobbyist Writer
Hey, can I say that your username is just fucking awesome??
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OfWhatDreamsMayCome Featured By Owner Jun 25, 2014  Hobbyist Writer
I love reading your works, it's always a pleasure to do so. :) 
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CannedMadMan66 Featured By Owner Jun 24, 2014
I sent you a note. Let me know when you get it. Thanks.
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Dyckannu Featured By Owner Jun 24, 2014  Hobbyist Writer
I love your work, it's honestly just amazing. I mean, there isn't much more to say, just... Wow, like, holy shit. Keep it up.
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BloodshotInk Featured By Owner Jun 24, 2014
 ♡ Thanks for the faves
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24-Stars-of-Nirvana Featured By Owner Jun 24, 2014  New member Hobbyist Writer
I love love LOVE your writings so much!!!! Especially because i can tell how much heart and raw emotion goes into every word, in every thing I've read. I truly admire you, and i don't say that about just anyone. I can't WAIT to see where you go from here. Clap 

p.s. the Sinbadxreader fanfic you wrote is my favorite! Sent my heart on a freakin TRIP...thought it was gonna explode...*fans hot, flustered face*Love 
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celticsister Featured By Owner Jun 24, 2014
Thank you for that last poem.  I shared it with my sister.  You have a poet's heart.  An artist by nature is a daydreamer, a thinker of the heart and THAT makes you very interesting.  
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dragonAuspistice Featured By Owner Jun 24, 2014  Student General Artist
you're a really amazing person :33
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serenity14590 Featured By Owner Jun 24, 2014  Student General Artist
So i just read your newest poem.
And i felt the need to drop by and tell you that it was a beautiful,  well written piece. And i enjoyed it, despite the tears it gave me.




I also like to mention that i think youre very beautiful and amazing and i aspire to be as good a writer as you.
You're amazing just the way you are and if you ever need someone, im here for you. I promise.


Im hoping this didnt come off as creepy. I promise im just trying to be nice.
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CrisisHalfPrincess Featured By Owner Jun 23, 2014  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
Your newest poem was very touching for me
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