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And let me tell you that I am absolutely terrified.

I've never been good at change when it comes to school. The transition from a shitty catholic school to high school was a breaking point in my life when I was at my lowest. I didn't talk to anyone, I constantly cried myself to sleep at night, I didn't care about my grades and let them slip until the last second...I'm scared that the same will happen when college starts.

And this summer I had so much planned. But I didn't do any of it. The stories I meant to write? Not even a word. The friends I was going to hang out with all the time? I barely texted them once a week. The weight I was going to lose? I gained more pounds from sitting on my fat ass and staring at a computer screen.

What if college isn't for me? What if I fail all my classes and have to pay even more than I already am? What if I lose all connection with my friends because I have no classes with any of them and I just can't really talk to them anymore because I don't know what to say?

I'm scared, dammit. I don't want to grow up anymore. I want to be childish and immature and not worry about paying car payments and insurance every fucking month on my minimum wage salary. I don't want to pay over $500 for textbooks when I rent all the used ones. I don't want to drive to the city where my college is at every day and worry about getting in an accident people no one there drives properly. I don't want to be surrounded by strangers.

I don't want to go to college. I don't think I'm good enough for it. School has always my worst enemy. Everyone always says I'm one of the smarter ones but they don't realize how difficult it is for me.

just...ignore this. 


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wow. such writer. many literature. very words.

I write. I read. I daydream. I eat bacon. I play Pokemon.

I'm not very interesting and neither is this bio.

poetry | fanfiction | original writing | all-around advocate of the "anything goes" genre

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UnluckyAmulet Featured By Owner Aug 20, 2014  Hobbyist Writer
Okay, can I admit something kinda lame? When you commented on my Rome x Reader story a few weeks ago, I freaked out because I was like "omg, omg, sempai noticed me." XD Ridiculous, I know, but yeah. You go Glen Coco.
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Sammur-amat Featured By Owner Aug 13, 2014   General Artist
Bunny Emoji-66 (Thank you arigatou) [V3] for the fave Misc Emoji-13 (Heart) [V1] 
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Kerberusz Featured By Owner Jul 24, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
Hi. Can I say that you look really awsome at your ID-photo??
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pinxroxx Featured By Owner Jul 15, 2014  New member Hobbyist Writer
Hey, can I say that your username is just fucking awesome??
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OfWhatDreamsMayCome Featured By Owner Jun 25, 2014  Hobbyist Writer
I love reading your works, it's always a pleasure to do so. :) 
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CannedMadMan66 Featured By Owner Jun 24, 2014
I sent you a note. Let me know when you get it. Thanks.
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Dyckannu Featured By Owner Jun 24, 2014  Hobbyist Writer
I love your work, it's honestly just amazing. I mean, there isn't much more to say, just... Wow, like, holy shit. Keep it up.
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BloodshotInk Featured By Owner Jun 24, 2014
 ♡ Thanks for the faves
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24-Stars-of-Nirvana Featured By Owner Jun 24, 2014  New member Hobbyist Writer
I love love LOVE your writings so much!!!! Especially because i can tell how much heart and raw emotion goes into every word, in every thing I've read. I truly admire you, and i don't say that about just anyone. I can't WAIT to see where you go from here. Clap 

p.s. the Sinbadxreader fanfic you wrote is my favorite! Sent my heart on a freakin TRIP...thought it was gonna explode...*fans hot, flustered face*Love 
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celticsister Featured By Owner Jun 24, 2014
Thank you for that last poem.  I shared it with my sister.  You have a poet's heart.  An artist by nature is a daydreamer, a thinker of the heart and THAT makes you very interesting.  
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